Friday, May 07, 2010

Honesty.

It has been awhile, eh?

Let me be honest and say that,
I am just living each day.
I am not living it to the fullest.
I am not living it to the best.
But I am living.

Let me be honest and say that,
My relationship with Christ has been lacking.
I am not spending a set amount of time with Him.
I do talk to Him everyday.
And I listen to DC*B almost everyday and if you know me you know how much that impacts me.
But I am talking to Him.

Let me be honest and say that,
I am not really sure who I am right now.
I know who I am truly.
But that is not who I am right now.
I am a little bit of the truly person.
And a little bit of this person.
But I am a little bit of the truly person.

Let me be honest and say that,
I still think of JRY.
(why the hell am I still?!)
I am so baffled by this.
I want to be healed of this.
I mean I effin think of him everyday.
Not on purpose. I swear not on purpose.
So many things just trigger it.
But I want to be healed of this.

Let me be honest and say that,
Even though the above,
I am dating someone.
And have been for awhile.
I am trying to move on.
I am not sure where it will go really.
Really just having fun and enjoying each other.
But I am trying to move on.

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